My group mates and I were working on a class assignment last week, which involved producing a video to enact a scenario of a negotiation. We could have done a simple intro for it, for the lack of time. After all, this subject is Design Management, which focuses on the 'managing' aspect, not the 'designing'. Still, we decided to do something nicer and fancier instead. How could we settle for mediocrity? Besides, most designers are perfectionists.
As a result, we spent 2-3 hours cracking our heads to do a fancy Flash intro. We had just learned how to use the software. The headaches were really unnecessary - it would probably gain us only a couple more measly 'effort' points from the lecturer. And this is what Ambition does to you.
On the same day I had to travel to Kota Kemuning using a route I've never travelled before. When I nearing the point where I should exit from the highway, I decided against going by the first familiar exit. I then ignore the second familiar exit, even though it is the one where my intuition was screaming "Turn off here! Turn of here!!" I was hoping that by using the next exit, it would bring me closer to my destination. I was wrong. My intuition was right... I should have taken the second exit but I stubbornly refused because curiosity beckoned for me to test out the next exit. And I was in a rush that day.
As a result, I got stuck in a horrible, unnecessary jam. Sometimes, I don't mind jams so much - you're stuck there anyway, why not relax and enjoy the music or podcast? But it's something else to be stuck in a jam that's leading you
away from your destination. And that's what Adventure did to me that day.
Yet Ambition taught us new Flash tips and tricks that would help us greatly in our other individual Flash project for another subject. And Adventure taught me to "take the second exit, not the third, stupid!" Even if I did take the right exit this time, I know that the next time I used this route again, I would surely, definitely, most possibly have tried out the third exit just to satisfy my curiosity. At least I won't get stuck in a jam in the wrong direction the next time :)
It's okay if you can't find the hidden message within this post. This was written without a 'moral of the story' in mind.
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Some of the choices I have made in my life has brought me lots of inconvenience. I don't live like the average campus student. I don't get paid for doing jobs that would easily earn me good money commercially. I can't afford to spend the Labour Day holiday going on a road trip. Sometimes people around you, even some of those you hold closest to your heart do not understand why you do what you do. Sometimes what you do affects and cause inconvenience to them too, and that doesn't make you feel great.
But when your classmates finally come to church and respond to God, when you see that stranger in church raising up their hands to indicate that they want to give their lives to Jesus for the very first time... everything within me bursts with the knowledge and assurance that
it's ALL worth it.